Well, if I don't remember much else, I do remember I started the active pushing process with the beginning of Jeopardy! Though, by this time I don't remember contributing many of the answers. The pain was there still in my lower back and had begun to hit me in the front as well.
With each contraction I was beginning to push with Mom and Brian there to hep along. My nurse had changed again too, to the night shift. Thankfully, this nurse was just as awesome as the previous one. She really tried to get me to focus and slow my breathing.
I never thought that mothers could "nap" or relax between contractions, but one definitely can and does! It is so nice to have that brief space of non-pain. I know that it eventually became very painful as the contractions increased in inten
sity and I began to feel them sharply. At some point, I know I was losing focus on just about everything from pushing, to breathing, to baby. Brian was tremendous help because he was right there trying to calm me down and reminding me to take deep "singer" breaths. Since his was the only male voice in the room it made it easier for me to focus in on him among all the other voices. And, for sure, the grip of a woman in labor is pretty freakin' intense according to Brian (especially if she grabs your nipple/chest hair by accident). I vaguely remember the doctor leaving to hunt down the anesthesiologist to give me more of the epidoral. It seemed like forever before she arrived to help with the pain. Once the pain started to subside, I could focus again on breathing and pushing our little guy into the real world. I had asked for a mirror and was grateful to see what was going on and what I was working toward. Our boy had a ton of dark hair that could be seen with every intense push. Two steps forward, one step back I kept reminding myself as I would see the baby move and recede. It seemed to be taking forever. All I could think of is breathe, push, breath, rest.
So after two hours of this pushing process, my brilliant nurse asks if I want to tug on a towel to help focus my efforts. All I can say is give this woman a raise! She held one end of a rolled towel and I held the other, tugging and pushing. It was this method that really pushed our little guy out into the world naturally and not via a C-section. It was quite an amazing sight to see and even now brings tears to my eyes (if you aren't squeamish). Within moments, the nurse had him up on my chest for me to hold and begin to love.
